Time to reevaluate
Going home for an extended break in Scotland to try and sort my head out. 2006 was a mixed bag overall and I really need to take stock and figure out where my life is heading.
Am I an Artist? Am I a Filmmaker? Am I a Photographer? Am I a Videographer? Am I an Editor? Am I a Writer? Am I a Composer? Am I none of the above?
I don’t really know what I am, I have my fingers in so many pies that it’s like I don’t know where to concentrate my efforts. I think I have spent enough time being a jack of all trades and master of none. I know I need to start exhibiting and creating stuff with the intention of showing it off. This need is the driving force behind my existence.
But that isn’t all, I need to figure out the best way to go about achieving this. I’ve been doing freelance video production (mainly post-production) for the last year under the guise of ‘3angle films’ and although I have learned so much from this it’s really been hard work just to eke out a living. I thought that by becoming freelance I would have so much time to work on creative stuff but the truth is that what with having to do some much editing and video work I just don’t have any creative energy left over to work on my own stuff.
Then again a lot of the time I learn stuff because I have to learn it for work. I don’t know my head hurts and I’m all over the shop. Maybe that’s why I am just taking a break from it all for a while…
The other thing is what to do with this website. It is currently a blog but I want to turn it into some kind of delivery mechanism for my work and creative projects. Either way it will have to wait until I get the new 3angle films website up and running…
December 5th, 2006 at 3:41 am
Hi:
Stumbled across your little blog here out on the internet. Been in the business for 20 years, mostly as an A.D. in Toronto. These days I’m Producing and Directing my own corporate video and guess what……I feel the same way as you.
It ain’t easy out there, trouble is it’s so hard to give up the “dream”
Hope you stick around and if not just make sure you’re happy with what your doing.
Ross
December 5th, 2006 at 7:13 pm
Hey Ross thanks for the comment. I know what you mean about ‘giving up the dream’ and to be perfectly honest I can’t see myself doing that. I don’t think I could.
I just need a break from the work and a chance to look at how everything went and figure out some moves for the new year.
I just have to make sure I’m heading in the right direction and that what I’m doing is going to help me achieve my long term goals. Gain some perspective perhaps…