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In that book which is my memory, on the first page of the chapter that is the day when I first met you appear the words: Here begins a new life.

Dante Alighieri

Salad Fingers Episode #6

That is all…

I know cause I’ve seen it
It was grey and I want it
Theres no point in sitting
Going crazy on my own
Do you know what
I was put here in the world for
Could you tell me
In three words or more
It’s the only way of getting out of here
It’s the only way of getting out of here

Take a lesson
From the ones who have been there
My brain is not damaged
But in need of some repair
Hold on to the basics
But we can’t change all our tactics
Don’t just sit there
Going crazy on your own

It’s the only way of getting out of here
It’s the only way of getting out of here

This is the modern way
Faking it everyday
Taking it as they come
We’re not the only ones
Is that what we used to say
That this is the modern way?

I know where I’m going
I know we are in the knowing
I will stop at nothing
Just to get what I want

It’s the only way of getting out of here
It’s the only way of getting out of here

This is the modern way
Faking it everyday
Taking it as they come
We’re not the only ones
Is that what we used to say
That this is the modern way?

That this is the modern way
Faking it everyday
Taking them as they come
We’re not the only ones
Is that what we used to say
That this is the modern way?

I got the Kaiser Chief’s new album “Employment” and Maximo Park’s “A Certain Trigger” - mainly as listening to them in HMV had the effect of making me want to listen to them at home - it probably wont last.

In other news I also decided to have a clear out of all my ex’s stuff. I deleted her number from my mobile phone, her emails fromOutlook and blocked and removed her from my MSN buddy list. I’m going to systematically go through all my stuff and anything that reminds me of her is getting chucked out. The difficult part is that after spending the last 3 years living together nearly everything reminds me of her and I can’t afford to ditch everything - but hopefully if I can get rid of enough of it I will stop thinking about her so much.

I also decided to write a list of things I didn’t like about her - I’m already at number 41. Admittedly a lot of them are pretty much the same things written down differently, but its reputedly theraputic to go through this sort of routine. The sleepless nights have got to end regardless, as it just makes me tired at work. So if writing and talking about breaking up makes it easier I might as well do it here. I’m down to pretty much only thinking about her when I get home at night and I never really thought about it but I can see why so many cliched songs get written about the subject. It’s definately good fuel for writing - who knows maybe I will pick up a pen and start writing another script. Or add to my old ones, might as well make something positive out of it.

The other thought that is slowly emerging is emigration - I heard a lot about how great a place to live Canada is, and since I’m beginning to associate this little island with everything that is wrong with my life I might even look into it a little more seriously. I could save up some money and start a new life over there, maybe do a masters in filmmaking and try and get a production company up and running while I’m over there.

Its a thought anyway.

Mixed bag really - On the plus side I started a new job at HMV over xmas so I will get some money finally and I’ve moved into my new place, but on the down side I split up with my girlfriend of about 3 years… Ah well back onto the meat market I go. Good job I started dieting, quit smoking (again) and have been doing loads of walking since now I’m back in trim in time for the bachelor life.

Seen loads of films (including Together by lucas moodyson - excellent, and Elephant by Gus Van Sant - also a good un) and read tons of books including ‘The Time Travellers Wife’ which you should all rush out and buy if you have not read it already (it rocks). Oh I kinda like the kaiser chiefs new album although hearing it on repeat all last week at HMV means i’ll probably not buy it just yet as I’m all played out.

So if you have any unmarried daughters/sisters (Single MILF’s accepted too) you want to move out then send their details (including vital statisitics and a recent high res picture - prefer nudes) to my address.

Peace.
x

P.S. I’m too tired to link everything - learn to use google. kthxbye.

Hey all, sorry it’s been so long between posts but I’ve been so busy trying to sort my life out that I’ve not had the time or inclination to write anything in here - besides I don’t really want to bum anyone out when reading through my insane witterings. Basically I was domicile-less for a while and I’ve been crashing at a mates house. Fine for me, considering I don’t have much cash atm but it must be less than fine for poor Adam who has lost his couch to me for the last few weeks. Anyway the good news is that I should be all sorted out soon.

I have a job interview in an hour, I’m going to see my girlfriend for the first time in nearly 2 months next Monday and I move in to a new place on the 14th of November. Just so you know I have not been bumming around the entire time since I moved out of my last place, I’ve shot two seperate videos (a Musical on Nelson and a talk on Mervyn Peake) and spent most of my spare time in between job-hunting and editing. I also read Catch 22 (Hilarious) and have watched a plethora of films including Velvet Goldmine, Dogville, the Silence of the Lambs(again), Team America (again)Rosemarys Baby and a host of others (many starring the lovely Patricia Arquette by some bizzare twist of fate). Also what with no pc, no internet, no guitar and none of my things, I have been watching way too much TV something I really look forward to fixing once I move into the new place.

Anyway, just so you know I should be somewhat more visible come the 14th of November!